"For he grew up before him like a young plant, and like a root out of dry ground; he had no form or majesty that we should look at him, and no beauty that we should desire him. He was despised and rejected by men; a man of sorrows, and acquainted with grief; and as one from whom men hide their faces he was despised, and we esteemed him not. Surely he has borne our griefs and carried our sorrows; yet we esteemed him stricken, smitten by God, and afflicted. But he was pierced for our transgressions; he was crushed for our iniquities; upon him was the chastisement that brought us peace, and with his wounds we are healed. All we like sheep have gone astray; we have turned-every one-to his own way and the LORD has laid on him the iniquity of us all. He was oppressed, and he was afflicted, yet he opened not his mouth; like a lamb that is led to the slaughter, and like a sheep that before its shearers is silent, so he opened not his mouth." -Isaiah 53:2-7
Occasionally, there are moments in life, that change everything. The way you see things, the way you see people, the way you conduct yourself. It literally changes every single thing you once thought you had figured out. A moment when you realize just how small you are, yet still so loved. The moment when you see first hand that love is the center of everything. A love so pure that no words are needed. A love that oozes from the very fibers of ones being that can be physically seen. Love that needs no explanation, but only to be absorbed and taken in. This was the moment that changed my view of everything forever. I was attending a school of worship taught by pastors Harry and Cheryl Salem. Learning the amazing truths about true worship, and how I can use the talents God gave me to worship Him! On a Wednesday afternoon, as I sat on the stage, while the team rehearsed for worship service, my moment of pure awe came. As I sat there soaking in the sweet presence of our amazing God, I was suddenly in front of Him! I was face to face with Jesus Himself! It is so hard to put into words, because there are no words to describe Him! I was there, having an Ezekiel moment. Ezekiel 1:28 describes how Ezekiel reacted when he was seeing the glory of The Lord. He fell on his face when he saw it! I believe he was trembling, stunned, in awe, and humbled to the point of falling on his face before his Maker. I was weeping, I felt so small, so humbled to be in His presence, stunned and trembling, but all at once so loved beyond words. Jesus, the most beautiful and beyond perfect face I have ever seen. His eyes were endless, you could look into them and see no end! They were crystal clear blue-green, almost turquoise or sea green like in color. In His eyes you could see the love that cannot be described in words, the most pure love imaginable. You could see the compassion, the humbleness, the silent strength. Every good word you would use to describe Jesus was in His eyes. The most gentle and understanding spirit ever known. The beauty is matchless. If there is one thing I can tell you about Jesus, it is that He loves you more than anything, and loves when we draw near to Him! As the music on stage stopped, I could not move. The tears would not stop flowing. I remember Cheryl looking at me and asking, "What did you see?" I knew God had spoke to her and told her I had seen many things, but I could not open my mouth to speak! I was speechless! I had tried to tell my mom and sister later that night, but I still could not talk about it without starting to weep. It was that defining moment in my life that I experienced what Ezekiel had...stunned and trembling in the presence of the Almighty God to the point of no words! After School of Worship and upon returning home, I knew God wanted me to do something with what I had experienced. At the time this happened, the widely popular "Son of God" movie was being promoted for its upcoming release. I attended an event, and had the opportunity to hear the producers and the actor that played Jesus, speak. When they were speaking, I couldn't help but notice the actor that played Jesus, carried the same gentle, yet strong spirit that I saw in my vision. When I saw him in person, I knew he was the one to draw to convey the same love and gentleness that Jesus has. With my drawing, it wasn't so much about the appearance of Jesus, but about capturing the love, kindness, patience, and gentleness of Jesus. Having just learned about what it is to worship God with our talents, I took a whole new approach to this drawing. I read accounts of Jesus from scripture pertaining to His love and about His life. As I drew, I prayed that God would work through me, by anointing my hands. I prayed that He would give this drawing life that people can see and feel. I also prayed that He would give me the ability to capture the Spirit of Jesus in the eyes. I played worship music the entire time I drew and really surrounded myself with the atmosphere of God. This drawing was more to me than just a portrait of an actor. It was a responsibility to trust God to bring His love to people through a visual of what we may think of Jesus. I entitled this drawing "I AM" because Jesus simply "IS". He "IS" everything good and perfect, always in our midst. It's a simple, yet bold statement, just like Jesus. He was a simple man, but a bold force that commands attention. The Beginning and The End, Alpha and Omega, the "I AM"! Always has been and always will be forevermore! I pray you may see the love and gentleness our Savior carries. I pray when you look at this drawing, you see a picture of the love Jesus has for you! Let it represent to you and your home the peace and love we find in Jesus! Knowing that He will love you and meet you right where you are!